The Truth in the Paradox: Holding Two Realities at Once

We live in a world that wants things to be clear.
Right or wrong.
Good or bad.
Sick or healed.
Mainstream or alternative.
Science or spirit.

But real life doesn’t work like that.
Healing doesn’t work like that.
And neither do we.

One of the most powerful things I’ve learned—through my training, microdosing, motherhood, trauma, grief, spiritual emergence is that two seemingly opposite things can be true at the same time.

And often, they are.

I can love someone deeply, and still need distance.

I can feel joy and grief in the same breath.

I can trust the sacredness of the medicine, and still have boundaries around how and when I use it.

I can believe in the intelligence of the body, and still be terrified when symptoms show up.

I can feel deep spiritual connection, and still doubt everything the next day.

I can be strong and soft.
Resilient and exhausted.
Hopeful and angry.
Healing and still hurting.

There is truth in the paradox.

This isn’t weakness. This is wholeness.

The nervous system doesn't operate in neat categories.
Trauma healing doesn’t happen in straight lines.
Integration isn’t a checklist and being human is wildly complex.

Yet so much of the culture around us even in wellness and spiritual spaces still pushes us toward certainty, polarity, and simplicity.

But nuance is where the real medicine is.

Paradox is where wholeness lives.

Microdosing Taught Me This

When I first began exploring microdosing, I thought it would be about clarity.
I thought it would show me The Truth.

But what I’ve come to see is that the real gift of microdosing is its subtlety. Its refusal to offer easy answers. Its way of gently showing me how layered I am. How many voices live inside me. How two completely different truths can sit side by side and both belong.

Some days I feel like I’m completely at peace.
Other days, I’m crawling through the same old fear.
And both are part of my healing.
Both are honest.

We Don't Need to Choose

The culture we live in makes us feel like we have to pick a side.

Are you pro-medicine or natural healing?
Are you spiritual or scientific?
Are you in the light or in the shadow?
Are you for this or against that?

But the deeper I go into my work, the more I find myself in the and.

I believe pharmaceuticals can help and I believe many people are over-medicated.
I trust in intuition and I value evidence.
I hold boundaries and I lead with compassion.
I honour the sacred and I stay rooted in the body.

Learning to Stay With the Tension

It’s not always easy to sit in the space between.
It can feel uncomfortable. Exposed. Even lonely.

But this is the work.
Staying with the discomfort of not knowing.
Resisting the urge to collapse into a fixed position.
Allowing the opposites to coexist in your body, without forcing resolution.

This is where integration happens.
This is where wisdom is born.
This is where the spiral path begins to make sense.

Two things can be true at once.
Often, they need to be.
And that’s not confusion—it’s capacity.